😈太芥🤕🥂

"Your blood is mafia black. More so than anyone else in this country."

“Now I have neither happiness nor unhappiness.

Everything passes.

That is the one and only thing that I have thought resembled a truth in the society of human beings where I have dwelled up to now as in a burning hell.

Everything passes.”

Natsume なつめ

Artist | Writer

He/Him | 23 | Queer | Disabled
Multishipper | Rarepairs | Polyship
Bungou Stray Dogs hell
Main ships: DazAku | ChuuAku | DazAtsu | ChuuAtsu

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“I have always shook with fright before human beings. Unable as I was to feel the least particle of confidence in my ability to speak and act like a human being, I kept my solitary agonies locked in my breast. I kept my melancholy and my agitation hidden, careful lest any trace should be left exposed. I feigned an innocent optimism; I gradually perfected myself in the role of the farcical eccentric.”

About

Well hello there, fine beauty~! You may call me Natsume, or Natsu for short. You can also call me Dazai if you'd like, it feeds my ego, huhu~. 😝

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I am 23. I've been pretty much obsessed with anime my entire life. My current fixation is on Bungou Stray Dogs. My biggest character muse is Dazai, if it wasn't obvious enough. I find him the most relatable, compared to most characters. My interest in Dazai extends to the real world. So far I've read his book, "No Longer Human" many times. I also really fucking love Akutagawa, please send me anything Akutagawa. I will marry him to death.

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My pronouns are He/Him, I do not accept any variation. I also do not like feminine gendered language used, even if it's a joke. "That's what she said" is not funny to me. Please respect my pronouns. Also, feel free to tell me yours if you wish, and I will respect them without question.

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I won't get too much into it, but I have a severe chronic pain disability, among other things. It can be near impossible to write or draw most days as a result, or I may be too low on energy to focus on what I need to do because of my condition. I will try my best with the spoons I have to make what I can, but it will take longer. Please understand.

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Again I won't get too much into it, but I'm also mentally ill and mentally disabled, so please be aware this could also affect my ability to generate content.

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I don't like to discuss much about myself publicly for safety reasons, but if you do want to get to know me as a friend, feel free to message me! I am always happy to have someone to talk to. Also don't forget to read my warning section, before you follow or interact. Please don't assume I am neurotypical or able-bodied, be patient with me as I may take time to respond.

“Whenever I was asked what I wanted my first impulse was to answer "Nothing." The thought went through my mind that it didn't make any difference, that nothing was going to make me happy.”

Before you Follow

I am of the mindset that the fictional world should be free to be explored. This includes content that may be considered dark, triggering, or problematic to the average person. I understand that this content may not be for everyone, so don't feel pressured to consume it.

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I will do my best to put trigger warnings and tag my darker works or threads. However, if you do decide to click and read it anyways, and then you get upset, do not take it out on me. I am not responsible because I warned you in the tags and descriptions. My content is obviously not for minors, or the sensitive at heart.

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On my Twitter I may occasionally talk about Mori, Fyodor, or other "problematic" dubbed characters, and ships involving them. I may also create fanfiction of them. Again, if it makes you uncomfortable, you are not forced to consume it or continue following.

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All I care about is being free to create the content that sounds interesting to me, and exploring different faucets of a character and their potential. I do not care to debate or fight over fiction. If you have a problem with me, please discuss it privately. Callout posts make you look bad, and it's traumatizing for the person being called out.

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Lastly, regardless of whatever content I do end up creating, it does not reflect on who I am as a person, my morals, and of course I would never do what my characters or creations do in real life.

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Do not follow if

You're transphobic, anti-lgbt, ableist, racist, sexist, etc, or make remarks against these things. Especially if you're aphobic/enbyphobic. I have many friends on the aroace or non binary spectrum, and I firmly believe their identities should be respected as the reality they are.

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You're underage. Underage is -18 in my country. I don't care if it's legal in yours. I don't care if you think you're mature or old enough. You make me feel uncomfortable and unsafe. If you decide to follow anyways, then do not interact with my NSFW content. I am very NSFW, which is why I do not have a SFW page.

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You kinkshame, police content, or engage in anti behavior. When it comes to fiction there is probably very little kinks I don't have. Let me enjoy them in peace. Everything will always be tagged as a warning.

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You encourage or engage in callout culture. Especially if it's over fictional characters, creations, or ships. Call outs are severely damaging and traumatizing. It can ruin lives or drive the person being called out to suicide, which is not something you should be proud of, unless you're a psychopath. You are not a hero, you're a bully and you need therapy.

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You hate or dislike DazAku, because it's my favorite ship and I will not stop talking about it. I don't care if you believe it's abusive. If you read the manga or did any semblance of research outside of Wikipedia, you'd learn that's not the case. I'm not going to stop shipping them. I don't care what you think.

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You hate or dislike Fyodor, Mori, or anyone shipped with them that isn't FukuMori or FyoGol. I ship Atsushi, Chuuya, and Dazai with Fyodor and Mori, so if that makes you uncomfortable you might have a bad time when I mention it. I also don't care if you think negatively about Mori or Fyodor, so please don't bother.

“As long as I can make them laugh, it doesn’t matter how, I’ll be alright. If I succeed in that, the human beings probably won’t mind it too much if I remain outside their lives. The one thing I must avoid is becoming offensive in their eyes: I shall be nothing, the wind, the sky.”

Favorites

Below is a list of things I love. I also want to stress that I've seen over 400 anime, so this isn't the end to my list of things I've seen or read. Feel free to ask about these, I love talking about them!

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Unfortunately, BSD is the only button that works due to not having carrd premium. Feel free to check who I ship or stan!

Anime

Manga, Manhua, Webcomics

Videogames and Visual Novels

Music

“That dream of going on bicycles to see a waterfall framed in summer leaves—it was not for the likes of me. All that can happen now is that one foul, humiliating sin will be piled on another, and my sufferings will become only the more acute. I want to die. I must die. Living itself is the source of sin.”

Goals

Read BSD manga
organize fanfiction ideas
write and post a fanfiction
participate/finish dazaku week
participate/finish rarepair big bang
cosplay as Dazai
start drawing again
learn Japanese
go to Japan

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I want to do as much of these as I can this year!

“Is it not true that no two human beings understand anything whatsoever about each other, that those who consider themselves bosom friends may be utterly mistaken about their fellow and, failing to realize this sad truth throughout a lifetime, weep when they read in the newspapers about his death?”

HUmans

All the amazing people who have waltzed into my life and mean the world to me. In no particular order. You're the reason I have hope. Thank you for being here. I am overwhelmed with joyful emotions just knowing I can look forward to talking with you every day.

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If you don't see your name here it doesn't mean we're not friends! Feel free to ask and I can add it. Though it will feel strange if we don't talk very often. Feel free to talk more to me! I only bite if you want me to~ Huhu.

“Unhappiness. There are all kinds of unhappy people in the world. I suppose it would be no exaggeration to say that the world is composed entirely of unhappy people. But those people can fight their unhappiness with society fairly and squarly, and society for its part easily understands and sympathizes with such struggles. My unhappiness stemmed entirely from my own vices, and I had no way of fighting anybody.”

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Thank you for reading this far.

Bungou Stray Dogs

Characters

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Osamu Dazai
My self insert

Akutagawa Ryuunosuke
Ultimate husband, I love him so much

Chuuya Nakahara
My god, my religion

Atsushi Nakajima
My comfort baby, purest boy

Ships